When I’m sitting on the 13th floor, my thinking chair.

The sun has left and forgotten me
It’s dark, I cannot see
Why does this rain pour down?
I’m gonna drown
In a sea… of deep confusion
Somebody told me – I don’t know who
Whenever you are sad and blue
And you’re feelin’ all alone and left behind
Just take a look inside and you will find

You gotta hold on, hold on through the night
Hang on, things will be all right
Even when it’s dark
And not a bit of sparkling
Sing-song sunshine from above
Spreading rays of sunny love – just

Hang on, hang on to the vine
Stay on, soon you’ll be divine
If you start to cry, look up to the sky
Something’s coming up ahead
To turn your tears to dew instead

And so I hold on to this advice
When change is hard and not so nice
If you listen to your heart the whole night through
Your sunny someday will come one day soon to you

Go on, have a listen over here. 
And yes, I love songs with a long introduction. 

Hearing his sexy voice each time he interrogates makes me happy (:

Friday’s afternoon can’t get any better with people like them on television. 

I am, pissed.

What’s with you people? Calling it off as and when you feel that you had enough. Thinking how your dick is so far more important than anything else. That if you are able to take it in your stride,we are also able to fucking cope with it. 

Not only that, you leave without a word and assume that everything’s over. 

What’s left of us? Then where do we go from here?
Of course we fucking cry and go through days of shit because of you. We start seeking the comfort of Ben and Jerry before weeping to a bloody sad movie again. We run into the arms of our besties (God bless these people), we drink ourselves silly and go home shitface. And ultimately, through the remaining strength we have for the day, we convince ourselves that life is better without you.

And just when we thought we’re over you. Just when we are slowly and painfully coping to life without you.  Of all people, you have to come back and apologize. Come back to tell us that you didn’t mean to hurt us and it wasn’t your fucking intention.

Fuck you, seriously, fuck you. 

Just because the dick reports that it is a good day to apologize today, means its the right time to apologize? 
Just because you think that by apologizing, it’ll smoothen out the tormentous period that we’ve gone through?
And that if it’s a right time for you, it’ll also be a right time for us to take in your shit?

Fuck you, seriously, fuck you.

You don’t just come running back saying I still love you then pull out a knife and stab right into my heart.

Camenji.

For the cake, company and laughter you’ve brought me.
Be sure to organise a "let’spartayeandDance with a capital D" party soon.
Bring along the camera man. ;)

Ah Xiang, Boy and Tyng

For one of my favourite davidoff perfume.
For making arrangements to meet despite me saying that I’m lazy and can’t be bothered to organise.
I finally caught law abiding citizen! A movie with Gerard Butler really can’t go wrong!

Kate Kate

For the quiet afternoon on the 25th.
Chilling inside the Singapore Arts Museum, bitching about the not so little things in life.
And most importantly, having fun together.
A pity my nose was running pretty badly that day.

Misah and Ira.

For the short meet up, for the lovely dinner and for the many many stories.
Man! did i suck last time!
Can you believe it? It’s been like 10 frigging years of friendship!
I deffo wanna see you guys before I leave.

Ps: 2 nights ago, I received a call from you and you happily sang me a birthday song. Though I didn’t manage to catch you, I know you would have came down if not for the last minute call from your boss. Am happy nevertheless (:

 

To the lovely bunch of you who planned the surprise party yesterday, thank you.
Thank you so much for taking out time from your busy schedule to make this surprise a success. Sometimes, I don’t know what have I done in life to deserve all of this. But it ought to be at least something good for I have such an awesome bunch of friends I call family. 

The planned dinner and dress code, the surprise along One Fullterton, the drive to Changi and Marina Barrage and the Debrief back in my room. All that has happened will be deeply embedded in my heart and registered to memory. 

And to the Director of this party aka my bestie.
Terima Kasih.
Aku Cinta Padamu.

Bestie: Whatever it is, you know you can pull through this as much as I can do this too. all these while when he wasn’t there for you, you have to move on. Sometimes, the person you want more than anything, is the person you are simply better off without.

Sun rays come down as seen when they hit the ground, 
Children spinning around till they fall down down down.
I wait for you: it’s been two hours now,
You’re still somewhere in town,
Your dinners getting cold.
I rest my case you are always this late,
And you know how much I hate waiting around ’round ’round, 
Bitter heart, bitter heart tries to keep it all inside, 
Bitter heart, bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide,
Bitter heart, my bitter heart is gettin’ just a little fragile,
Bitter heart, bitter heart of mine.
And then you come and tell me the same reason as you did yesterday,
So tell me whats her name. 
Doo doo da dum, doo doo da dum, doo doo doo doo doo doo da da dum dum, da da da da dum, da da da da dum, da da da da dum.
Bitter heart, bitter heart tries to keep it all inside
Bitter heart, bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide, 
Bitter heart, my bitter heart is just getting a little fragile, 
Bitter heart, bitter heart of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine.

Ive never been a sucker for taiwanese dramas. Do you not agree that the actors like to blow up something so small.

And how the story plot always revolves around " I wanted to tell you but I can’t. I could have told you but I didn’t. " or…
"All these years I’ve been wanting to tell you something, when we finally meet I STILL CANNOT tell you."

Also, I hate the idea of tearing infront of the television.

Also, this drama is no different from all the other dramas.

But I agree.

It is very hard to forget someone.

No matter if its 3 days, 3 months or 3 years.

I suspect you might be reading this somehow, so this is especially for you.

I know you will be thinking of me every single day when you wake up, although you won’t have the habit of telling me how much you missed me.
I know on some days I will wake up right next to you instead and mornings include lazing on your bed/couch watching friends or some comedy.
I know you will remember the important people in my life and take an interest in getting to know them.
I know you will love the people I love because you understand how each of them are important to me.
I know you will crack me up with your silly jokes about everything or nothing on some occasions just to see the smile on my face.
I know you will call to burp or sing before telling me how much you miss me and hang up.
I know how eager you are with introducing me to your buddies, confident that we will all get along.
I know how I am already at my best when I look into your eyes.
I know you love me, just the way I am.
I know you will have your ways of making me laugh each time I flare up over something trivial.
I know you will understand why am I always sweating over the small stuff.
I know each time when you talk about the future, you will record your short term goals into your secret book.
I know you will love the void decks.
I know you will constantly provide your big hug-o when I’m feeling down 
I know you won’t get mad when I start tearing.
I know you will be very patient with me.
I know you will hug me to sleep.
I know you will.

I trust you, the wait is worth it.